Friday, January 30, 2009

Just another day

It's Friday, thankfully. I swear I say that every Friday, but I'm always happy when the end of the week rolls around. The pure anticipation and bliss of two whole upcoming days without constraints and deadlines. Glory be...they're just mine!!

I've always worked full time since I've been about 18 years old. There was that one blissful summer that I had off about 9 years ago, but other than that, I've always worked. So, to have time to myself is precious and I'll have to admit that I'm quite stingy with my days off. I hate (generally) to make plans for fear that when the time comes, I won't feel like doing said planned event. I know a lot of people aren't in agreement with me on this, and that's okay...plan away, but I prefer a more laid back approach to life.
I know quite a few people who have never had to work outside jobs and have been stay at home moms. Now, I'm not saying that that isn't a job in itself, but to have time to do whatever pops into the imagination, what a blessing! I am looking forward to the day when I can tender my resignation and walk away without looking back and have the free time to dedicate to my personal agenda. My very own "to do list". I can envision riding my horse a lot more than I do now, and even taking some lessons because I love to be critiqued and challenged to step outside of my comfort zone. I enjoy gardening and landscape design. Now I'm not saying that I'm good at either one, but I enjoy dabbling and learning and creating. I want to grow fruits and vegetables, lots of varieties of berries and of course I would love to have a gorgeous flower garden, something like you would possibly see in the old English countryside. You know, nothing proper and organized, but wildly imaginative and a bit out of control looking with a touch of old world charm. I especially love to plant flowers not only for their color and beauty, but for their wonderful scent. I want to attract honey bees and maybe even dabble in beekeeping. I think that sounds like fun.

Oh, there's so many things that I would love to try my hand at. I envision rising early and taking brisk morning walks or bicycle rides. I would enjoy taking another photography class and learning a lot more than I do now. And, if given some time for thought, I'm quite sure that my list would grow much longer. There's so many interesting and fun things to be enjoyed but for me, there's never enough time.
I think it would also be fun to remove every bit of furniture from my house and repaint or redo everything and begin fresh with a whole new palette. I would probably still gravitate to old world/farmhouse/western/English cottage design (picture that if you can), but wouldn't it be fun just to try and see how things turned out?? Oh, if money and time weren't always the determining factors of what I can or will do with my life. What a dream!
And I would absolutely love to travel. I have no desire to go to tourist destinations, but instead would rather spend at least a month in the places I like and set up temporary "house" and blend in with the locals. Sounds like a blast to me. What a dream it would be to do whatever our hearts or minds can come up with and then just do. But, that's definitely not my reality, probably won't ever be my reality. So instead, I have to live life on a much smaller scale and simply learn to rejoice in the everyday, simple little things that life has to offer and find the pure joy in the business of life - wherever or whatever our circumstances. That's probably the key in being at peace and finding true inner happiness and contentment. Just recognize and smile at all the simple, little things that happen our way everyday.

And then there's the unexpected little surprises that life throws our way. Here's one for example, I've always wanted to go somewhere warm and tropical. I have travelled to Mexico a couple of times and spent family vacations there when I was a teenager, but not since. The other day I was talking to my sister and she was telling me how she and her hubby are preparing for their annual trek south to Arizona for a couple of months. After I listened to her about their plans, I took a deep sigh and said how I sure wished that one of these days hubby and I would be planning a real trip somewhere warm and maybe even tropical. Wouldn't that be grand? Yadda yadda yadda, here we go again.

So, a few days ago hubby comes home from work and says that his little brother's only daughter who is planning her wedding this coming September has changed their plans and is now going to be married in Hawaii...and would we like to go??? Oh sure, like we can afford to go Hawaii I say...ever the optimist. But, dreams really do come true. Brother and sister-in-law are paying for several of the guests' airfare and the first 2 nights in the very exclusive 5-star resort and spa where the wedding is going to be held...and if we can find caretakers for the horses, they'd really like us to come for the wedding...are you freaking kidding me!!?? Of course we can!!! Count us in!!! So just like that, now I'm searching for beach cottages or hotel rooms on Oahu for a few more nights so we can stretch the vacation out just a bit. Albeit in something less exclusive than the 5-star resort, but who cares!!!! We are going to Hawaii!! Oh thank you most wonderful Father in heaven, what a blessing! You just never know what may be just around the corner in life. All I can say right now is that I'm feeling like one very lucky or probably more likely, very blessed gal who really does believe in miracles and in dreams coming true.

So Aloha baby!!! I'm going to Hawaii!!! Yippee!!!

I have so much work to do, let's see lose weight, lose weight, oh and then I should probably lose some weight too. *sigh*
Wish me luck??


Leah Fry said...

Good for you, going to Hawaii! I have also worked full time my whole adult life. Unfortunately we've lost most of our retirement money from the poor economy. I'll probably drop dead at my desk. But hey, I truly don't understand the Plan, but I do trust in the Plan Maker.

And I'm so with you -- I hardly ever make plans because I know when the time comes, I won't want to go.

fernvalley01 said...

rking full time and having the farm is all good but I hear you about protecting your personal time .
I always say when I get home and get done with chores ,you would have to set me on fire to get me to leave home .You will have a wonderful time in Hawaii I went once several years ago and ,just wow it its soo beautiful.
When you retire and do all your beautiful garden plans I may have to come and see ,I am usless at gardening but I love to look at them.(the word verification is avicato, wonder if that is a hint of thingss to come?)

Laughing Orca Ranch said...

Woot! Woot! I'm so happy for you! So exciting!

My hubby amd I were supposed to go to Hawaii 12 years ago. We had all the reservations set and deposits made. But I became prego with my twins and the Dr. thought I was too high risk to fly and we had to cancel everything. It was so bittersweet.
Happy about the babies...and sad about the change in plans for our trip together.

Hmmmm, our 20th wedding Anniv is next Spring...
You're giving me ideas! :D

By the way, stop by my blog, as I've got a goodie for you :)


Donna said...

Now why would you need to lose weight to attend someone else's wedding? That just doesn't make sense to me. Hawaii is a wonderful place, I finally went in 2005 and wondered what took me so long. We have no savings but we do have wonderful memories of our far-flung vacations, including Belize and St. Lucia, both just enough off the beaten tourist track.

Jenn said...

Ooh...Hawaii! You'll have a blast! I hope you have time to see some of the Island, not just go to the wedding and reception.

I envision exactly the same kind of flower garden you envision..wild and a little bit out of control...English cottage style. I'm working on it slowly but surely in my very own Midwestern Meadow Style...lots of native wildflowers, butterfly bushes, sunflowers and morning glories. Every year I add another bed or two and toss some more wildflower seeds onto areas that I'd really rather not mow. A little bit at at time it's coming along beautifully.

"Ice Pony Girl" said...

Have fun in Hawaii!

Anonymous said...

My family and i loved Hawaii - you will too! September will be wonderful. heck, it's always wonderful. Aloha, BAby!

Callie said...

Wow, Sounds awesome! I'd probably be packing for it already!

Carolynn said...

Yea! The prospect of going anywhere warm & sunny never fails to put me in an excellent frame of mind. What a blessing to have so many of the expenses paid for, too.

There are lots of things you mentioned here that I have in common with you. I long for two whole days off though...*sigh*. That's coming soon.

And, I booked one week vacation in the middle of summer (!). My first summer vacation in well over a decade. Unheard of!

It's always nice to see you on my comment page. Thanks for visiting!

Melanie said...

Hawaii sounds like it will be just what the doctor ordered for you!!!

I can totally relate to this post, because like you, I have always worked...until now. Being a full time student has its perks, such as having the summers off!!
Did you know that last summer was the first summer since I was 12, that I didn't have to work???

Once I realized that I could do whatever I wanted (after the housework was!!), I had a blast. I am really looking forward to this summer too, because it will be my last "free" summer. Next year I will be back to work, and though I do enjoy working, being home has its perks too. :)

So....soon I will be working right along side of you and wishing that I could retire too. At least we share the same dreams, eh???

Anonymous said...

bring back sunshine and pineapples :)


fernvalley01 said...

Hellooo? you said you were going to loose weight, not disapear altogether!
Hope everything is good and you are just practicing your Hula dancing.
We miss you!