Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Spinning Wheels

Do you ever have days on end when you seem to be so busy that you accomplish absolutely nothing? Well, lately that's exactly how I've been feeling. I get up each morning and prepare for my day. Each morning lately it seems that no matter what time I arise, and no matter how swiftly I try to complete my morning routine that I am running behind schedule before I ever leave the house. I arrive late or just in time to work and open the clinic. It's still slow, but business has slowly begun picking back up again (thankfully), but even though there may be no appointments on the book for that day, my boss has been showing up at the clinic and hanging out...and interrupting my day; and he's driving me insane!!! I cannot wait for business to resume so that I can schedule appointments for the day that keep him running. Anyway, I digress - but for whatever reason, I feel like I'm spinning my wheels. I seem busy and completely occupied, but at the end of the day I feel like I have accomplished so very little and wonder at just where the time has gone? The weather has been beautiful and warmish in the days and cold and below freezing each night. Just like I like it. Annie and I have been going for our walks and I do my chores each evening and prepare dinner and go to bed. Routine, routine, routine but still I feel like I'm making no headway. I really can't explain it, but in my mind I have all these endless lists of things I want to do and projects I want to be working on, but there just never seems to be enough hours in a day and my energy is never quite enough. I am tired and so help me, if I hear my boss's voice much more, I just might crack! Seriously, he's driving me nuts and I feel like I'm gonna blow...and it won't be pretty. I haven't even posted anything here for almost a week.
I'm not sleeping well lately and I'm very irritable. I have absolutely no reason to feel angry lately but that's exactly how I'm feeling. Very angry, and I have no idea why.
I read this on one of the blogs that I follow recently and somehow it seems appropriate for my frame of mind.
All animals except man know that the ultimate of life is to enjoy it.
Samuel Butler

What is my problem?

On a better note, Ladde is doing very well and will be able to go out in the pasture with his herdmates very soon. Maybe in a week or so. My hubby suggested that we wrap his legs with a support bandage for a while in case he gets a little over zealous at his newfound freedom. Probably not a bad idea. Hopefully he will keep his head and remain a calm and steadfast fellow. It's always with trepidation and a little bit of fear when we first turn him back out in the big pasture after such a long period of confinement and expensive therapy. I am hoping and praying for continued soundness.

I am so happy for him that his days of prison are soon to come to an end. He's been such a good boy and has accepted his fate with resignment and good cheer (at least for the most part). Bless his pea-pickin' little heart.

These last two pictures were taken a couple of years ago during a campout at Sheep Springs Horse Camp near Sisters, Oregon. Good memories and warm June days. They sure do look good right about now.


fernvalley01 said...

Sweetie ,its February! that alone sucks the joy out of my days. I amn laughing right now though because my word verification is wingnutt!
Glad Ladde is on the mend ,not a bad idea though to brace him up for his first turnout it would be rotten to loose the ground you have gained.
The busy busy, but not getting anywhere sounds famillair I have 3 young horses to work in the spring + Phoenix and the 2 weanlings that need handling and I just barely get home do chores and its dark ,then on th w/e well..
"The hurrier I go the behinder I get"
Spring will help !

Gail said...

You have cabin fever. Break out of that routine and do something for you. The end of winter is always tough. You may be the only thing that is standing between your boss and insanity.
The world as you know it will not come to an end if you pamper yourself alittle.
Do something for you!

Train Wreck said...

Oh you have been following me around haven't you!! I feel the exact same way! cept that I have been in bed since Mon! I got bit by the unloved bug! I felt like someone beat me with a bat. I feel better today, so I decided to do something very important, yep check on all my blog friends!!((hugs)) to you my friend. I know how you feel. You made me feel better, so there you accomplished something!

allhorsestuff said...

HI there sweets!
I really WANT to read your last two posts...but I have some problems with lots and lots of little words lately...if I see too many of them on a page, though I care for you tons..I just click it off.
I think it is my lack of sleep...I just got here and should be good for hours...but I am already finding it difficult to maintain concentration! ARRRG!!!
So craps....I am not being a good blogger by not reading anyone's blogs...!
I will get better as the light stays longer and my eyeballs see it frequently.

You hang in and so will I! DEAL??
Your horse looked so happy camping!
PS thanks for all your lovely words to me are very special, Lorie dear!

Laughing Orca Ranch said...

What Gail says: You have cabin fever. You're just doing the same old every day and nothing new...not even a new project. There's a lot to be said for breaking out of a rut ad mixing things up a little to excite the mind.

How do I know this? Because this is my life. For 4 weeks all I do is stay in the house and go to physical therapy twice a week. Boring.
I'm bored of the computer, TV, reading, food, everything. I'm irritable and can't sleep. I hurt.

Tomorrow I'm going to take my own advice (Gail's too) and spend some time with my horse up in her paddock for an hour or so, after my PT appt. I'm really looking forward to it.

Do something for you, my friend :)

Mix it up a little.
Carpe Diem!

Seize the Day!

Lisa said...

I am going to join you in your feelings as I am feeling the same way. I think the other comments are accurate...cabin fever! Everything seems so routine and boring to me lately and such a tedious struggle with the brutally cold weather and now ice & snow. Even the horses are grouchy!! Spring will be here soon and this will all be a bad memory. Keep your spirits up and keep on plodding along, there is warmth & light at the end of this winter tunnel.

C-ingspots said...

Well thank you everybody. I feel better just knowing that I'm not the only one who's feeling this way! Once again, my wonderful blogging buddies have gotten me "outside of my head" and realized this too shall pass.

Come on spring!!!

Melanie said...

You are definitely not the only one who feels this!!! It's when it goes on for more than a month or two that you need to be concerned. (Sorry! My psych/social work self just came out!)

It sounds like you need your boss to get the heck out of dodge!! I remember those days (when I worked for a vet), and they can drive you nutso when it is slow!!!

Keep up your walking, and playing with your family, your pup, and your horses. The days are getting longer, and hopefully our economy will start getting stronger, and you will wake up one day and realize that you feel HAPPY!!! :)

June said...

I'm irritable too. Humans think too much; that's the problem. Animals are smart enough to live in the moment. I think often of that email that goes around again and again about a dog's thoughts:
A ride! My FAVORITE!
Dogfood! My FAVORITE!
...and on and on...

Maybe a little giftie that I have for you will help cheer you up, if you'd care to stop over.

Karri said...

Oh, how I can relate. Spinning my wheels and getting no where. I wish sometimes life didn't get in my way. Hoping when warmer weather comes it will all go away. Love your blog!


Donna said...

Thank you so much for your valuable advice on my blog. I have to keep reminding myself that this is a journey and I have barely taken a few baby steps forward on it. I work in finance so this is my busiest time of year (year-end reporting) so I feel your pain. I worked 10 hours of overtime this week! Changing things up always helps me, even small things like a different breakfast.