Friday, January 9, 2009

Full Moon A Comin'

Thanks Gail, I've been very forgetful lately and just realized that I hadn't yet acknowledged your kind gift of this lovely award. Thank you so very much!!! This is just beautiful. I appreciate you and your wonderful writing more than you'll ever know. Thanks so much!!!! do all realize don't you that this coming Saturday night is the full moon? Well, that could be one possible explanation at least in part for my complete lapse into moodiness lately. At least, I'd like to think that there is some outside force at work here...and not just my changing hormones. :) At least some of you know what I'm talking about, don't you??

This month, I will be celebrating my 49th birthday. Good grief!! I am getting so very old. I know that I've said it before, but it continues to astound me just how very, very fast time goes. It's shocking and just a little bit scary. At this rate, I'm gonna wake up tomorrow morning and I'll be 63 or something!! What the heck is up with that?? There are many aspects of aging that don't really bother me all that much. I'm not one of those women who are driven by their appearances. I mean, I like to look nice and all, but my looks aren't the most important thing to me. I have grey hairs, my hair is thinner than it used to be, I'm definitely fatter than I used to be (aack!! kinda hate that part!!), the skin around my eyes have those little lines that never used to be there, I have less energy than I used to have, I'm not as physically strong as I used to be...and probably the list could go on and on and on...but, who really gives a rat's patootie anyway?? There are more important things to a person's worth than what they look like. At least I think so. I am smarter now, I'm no longer a shy little church mouse, I'm not afraid to speak my mind and I know a little bit about a whole lot of things. I'm gaining wisdom. And there's a whole lot of value in that, I think.

Another thing that's interesting to me, is that not much scares me anymore. I'm not saying that I'm an unusually brave person, because that's not it. I'm not really very brave at all, at least in many situations. I'm not exactly sure just what I'm trying to say here, but I guess it's just faith. In a nutshell, I have faith that everything will always work out. Not necessarily how we want it to, or even how we think it will...but it's usually for the best just how things tend to pan out in the end. I believe that God is in heaven and He is in charge and whatever He decides is gonna go down - will. So, like the bible verse says "When God is for us, who or what can be against us?". Absolutely nothing or no one, that's what. assured that all will be ok. Everything's gonna work out in the wash, probably not how we think or want, but it will work out the way that it's supposed to. Of that, I'm sure.

Our new President will very soon be officially sworn into office. I have high hopes for him. I also have fear for him. I am going to keep him in my prayers that he will be allowed to fulfill his obligation to us and to our country and do a good job. It's not something that's going to be easy. We have gone down a long, slippery slope and are pretty low at this point in time. I don't expect miracles. I just hope that he will get people to have hope again. There are so very many problems that need to be worked out. It's going to take a lot of people, including you and me to work together and each one of us to do our part, however small that may be; but it will take us all collectively working as a whole to bring our country back into some sort of a healthy place. I do not envy President O'Bama at all, not really sure who in their right mind would even want to try and tackle all the problems we have right now. America is in the lowest slumps we've been in, in a very long time - maybe even ever. I think that America as a whole has turned it's back on God and what's right and because of that, we are getting just what we are choosing. The devil is being allowed to have more and more freedom and he's wreaking havok on everything and everyone. I personally believe that everything will probably get a whole lot worse before it gets better - if it ever does get better - maybe it won't. Maybe we are much closer to the end that any of us would like to admit, even to ourselves. Whatever. It's not for us to worry about, it's not in our control. I think that it is our responsibility to keep living our lives and keep praying and asking God to lead us in our decisions and our paths. And He will. I for one, would like to remember to always lend a helping hand to others whenever and wherever I can, and that includes animals. Be kind and compassionate and generous to everyone we come in contact with. Personally, this can be a challenge for me, as I can be not very patient with people sometimes, especially it seems with those who I love. You know, like our family members or our spouse or children. For some reason, the people who I love the most are usually the people I tend to be the most unkind to. One of my many shortcomings and one I will always have to keep in my prayer requests, I'm afraid. Sometimes a simple smile can make all the difference to someone who is downhearted or feeling lonely. And no matter how little we think we may have, each one of us can always afford to share that which we do have. And in giving, we are always blessed.

I heard this little saying somewhere the other day, but I liked it very much and it is something which I definitely need to keep close to my heart and in the forefront of my mind at all times. It goes like this: "Before we can change the world, we first have to change ourselves".

I like that.

Wishing a good weekend to all and many blessings.


Gail said...

To the tune of Wild Horses, I write. Check out Mr President by Pink. I am fifty-four and I remember the old Beatles song...will you still need me, will you still feed me, when I'm sixty-four. The beauty of youth is the price we pay for our wisdom. I'll take the wisdom...most days.

fernvalley01 said...

You sound better today, love that "hair is thinner body is thicker" thing huh?
Funny also I hope that I will be braver as I get older ,bu tsomehow the more I see in this life...
THe moon looked almost full last night I was out walking at midnight (hyper vigilant moment checking horses) and I was struck by how bright and beautiful it was outside the light had a blue tinge to it. Then I realized it was freaking cold and I too was developing a blue tinge. Anyhow have a great weekend Is Ladde sound to ride yet?

Fantastyk Voyager said...

Age is relevant. Think about how you feel on the inside and forget about looking in the mirror. That's what I do.
I have found that I tend not to be anxious about things like I used to. I just know things are going to work out somehow and when there's nothing that can be done to change it; why waste time worrying?

I love that picture of the black horse and the two little girls.

Grey Horse Matters said...

The moon seems almost full already. It's shining bright light on snow and ice, you don't even need a light to go out.
As for aging, well it's just something that we all do. You can either accept the changes gracefully or feel miserable about yourself. My husband has a saying that he uses quite often "It is what it is", and I mostly live by that. Really what else can you do.

Callie said...

Well girl, you got me beat, but not by much. I'm turning 46 this year. The beauty bit is that you're much smarter and not afraid to speak your mind! Love that part!

Leah Fry said...

Ah hell, you're all just puppies LOL! I'll be 57 on my next birthday (May). Sometimes the changes can be tough to come to grips with, but I am so much more at peace than I used to be. That in itself is an enormous blessing. I could do withut the advancing osteo arthritis. My hands, wrists and fingers hurt ALL the time.

Molly said...

I'm excited about the moon tonight! Glad you mentioned it. The tide is going really far out ahead of the moon rising.
Can we win a prize if we are the oldest in the group?

Lisa said...

Reading parts of your entry could have come out of my mouth. I'll be 46 this year and I think in the past few months I've begin to notice that I am truly getting older. All the things you say, I tire easier and feel weaker when tossing those feed bags & hay bales around. LOL.

I am amazed at how the years are flying by, seems just yesterday I was 25 and never thought I'd be THIS old and it is. I believe age is just a number, yeah our bodies wear down a little but with a good attitude and a good surgeon (kidding) we can keep ourselves younger than the number.

Rising Rainbow said...

I guess I get you worrying about your age, but since I am soon to be 62 which seems to be pretty near the age you seemed to be concerned about, might I say that it ain't that bad. I'm glad to still be here doing the things I love most.......horses, horses and more horses. Don't let those numbers bother you, just make good use of your time and you'll be fine.

Laughing Orca Ranch said...

Na, na, na, boo, boo! I'm the youngest gal here at 42! lol!
But look! I'm the one laid up in bed not able to walk or take care of my family, animals, nada.

See, how weird life is?

I enjoyed reading your 'keeping it real' thoughts, my friend.

I believe God is mentoring me actually. I have always been an impatient control freak, but being helpless changes alot.

I see so much that needs to be done around here: Christmas tree and decorations still up, laundry, dishes, dust bunnies and fuzz monsters, and dirty bathrooms. God reminds me I'm not in control. He is. And I need to look away and let others take over and do all those tasks, even if they are not done the way I'd like them to be done.

I just don't think that I should have to be laid up for months for these lessons to stick, though. gah!

~aka Rapunzle