Thursday, November 6, 2008

Quiet Musings

It's been a very quiet day today - almost eerily so. The doc is out of town on yet another quest for excellence through continuing education. The phone calls have been sporadic at best. Thank goodness there've been no emergencies - that's always nice. The whole world seems to be settling in somehow. Maybe it's because after all the election hype, people are just mulling it all over in their minds. I know that I am. It will take some time to get used to everything and see how it all pans out. But, I feel like most everyone else, glad it's over and glad to be getting on with the business of everyday life.

I've been looking through some of my old pictures today and also at my ever-growing collection of downloaded pics and art prints from the internet. There sure are some talented artists in this world. I can't draw a thing, maybe that's why I admire artists so much. Maybe I'll even upload one every so often to share them with anyone who might be reading.

Maybe I'm different than a lot of bloggers. I'm not sure why I started this except that this whole blogging world intrigues me so. I think of it as a way to reach out and in a way, get to know people who otherwise, I wouldn't even know existed. People fascinate me. They always have. I like co-mingling and hearing what makes people tick; hearing what they like and don't like. The endless variety of people and their personalities fascinate me. Ever since I can remember, I've felt somewhat detached, almost like being outside looking in, for a lack of a better description. Anyway, not sure of where I'm going here, but I've found that clicking away on these keys and putting my thoughts down is somehow reassuring and eases my mind that I'm not as alone as maybe I sometimes feel. I know that maybe many others might not relate, but this seems therapeutic to me. I have always admired people or friends that I know who keep a daily journal and chronicle their lives. They can look back over years past and laugh or cry or feel that moment, and be instantly transferred to that exact moment in that memory once again. If you just think about that for a minute, that's a wonderful blessing. I know that as I get older, my memory is fading. Sometimes a friend or a family member will mention something that happened, and try though I might, I can't remember. It's forever lost to me. That scares me because I have so many memories that are precious to me - I don't ever want to let them go. Oh, there's some that I'd like to forget, but even those painful times have molded me, forever changed me and made me who I am today. For better or worse, I am who I am right now. And I probably in some ways may remain forever unchanged, but we as human beings are always evolving, growing and changing. Maybe not always for the best...who decides that? I don't know. I've always remembered a saying that I heard somewhere, but for some reason has always stuck. Opinions are like mothers - everybody's got one. Now, I have to admit that I've changed the adjective here; that's not exactly the word used, but the meaning is still perfectly clear. And it's so true. Whether we state them vocally or not, we all have an opinion about most things - one way or another. And you know what I've realized? Our thoughts are who we become. So, I try to stay upbeat and have a positive attitude, but that's sometimes easier said than done. There's a verse in the bible that says that we should focus on all things pure and lovely because what we see and what we focus on changes us. So true.

And so, as usual I've rambled on...I like to think of them as my musings - it sounds nicer. I'll leave this daily post with a little saying I happened upon one day. I like it. I hope you do too.

We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is not an act, but a habit.



dvm2012 said...

Hi c-ingspots, nice to "meet" you too. I am definetly most interested in large animals. WOuld never choose to do small unless after 4 years I am sick of school and just want to work and end up in a mixed practice. Otherwise at the moment I would loe to specialize in horses.

fernvalley01 said...

Very introspective today, but beautifly said and thought out,love the pictures. I have always envied people who could journal and I have never been able to before my blog. Maybe we just needed technology to catch up to us?(LOL)
I see you have met my favorite vet student, she is a star!!

Pony Girl said...

Nice post. I think blogging is such an interesting thing....everyone does it for different reasons. It's really easy to "open up" online. I have to be careful sometimes. I want to say too much, give too much of myself away, then I panic. It's kind of funny because I really don't post a lot of controversial or deep things, I mostly just write about my experiences w/my horse or my horse/cowgirl interests. I guess I'm more of an introverted and private person by nature (except with those who know me well, I'm actually more extroverted!) and in my blog I get to be this person that is not as shy as I might be in real life social situations. Does that make sense? See, here I go again, revealing too much, LOL! ;)

Carolynn said...

Hi C-ing. I LOVED this post. Your thoughts align very well with my own in many regards. I feel a kindred spirit here. I'll be back to visit again.

Thanks for stopping by my virtual home and leaving such a lovely comment. How did you find your way there?


Jenn said...

Very thoughtful post today! I actually started blogging as a way to keep my extended, spread-across-the-planet family up-to-date on MY family. It kind of grew from there. For years I tried to do a daily journal the old-fashioned way in a notebook, but I couldn't keep up with it.

With blogging, I feel like I'm TALKING to someone, so it's easier to write. Does that make sense? I think even if no one ever read my blogs, I'd still write.

Did you know there are a couple of companies out there who will take your blog and turn it into a hardcover book, color photos and all? A couple of bloggy friends have their blogs "published" every year and I'm thinking about having mine done too, just for something to give to my kids later on. A lot of the posts in my family blog are about them after all!

C-ingspots said...

Hey Fern! Thank you. Yes, I've met your little vet student - you must be proud of her. Enjoy your weekend together.

PG - Believe it or not, I've always considered myself somewhat of an intro myself - but the older I get, the more outspoken I'm becoming (just ask my hubby), not sure if that's good or bad :) - and yes, I know exactly what you mean, here we are free to express whatever with less risks. It's fun!

Carolynn, Thank you! And I have no idea how I found your blog!! I tend to jump all around and forget a lot!! But, I'll come by again and you are welcome here any old time!! Have fun in sunny Mexico!!

And Jenn - thank you so much - I think that's a wonderful idea and what a treasure for your children to have. They will be sure to treasure your thoughts in years to come!

Gail said...

I, too, do not know why I am blogging. Cheaper than a therapist! I just started and found that it does relieve some pressure just to say something that you normally would not say to family.
I have always written, poems, journals, stories, and then thrown them away.
Now, it is like friends are reading my words.

Karen J-S said...

Howdy again c-inspots!

I just started this blogging thing about 2 weeks ago...I'd never even read a blog until I went to see a painting that Kathleen posted on hers of her Rat Terrier, Cloud (my dog Cindy Sue & Cloud are furiends on Dogster). Anyhow, it looked interesting and some of the other Dogster moms said they might do, why not!

I'm finding that many people live without a lot of close friends...meaning very rural. Just like me!!! The last time I actually saw someone other than my husband was a week and a half ago.

This is a way to make friends with like interests. It's making me think about what I'm doing, be creative, learn more about my camera, and what I really like is to hear that I'm not the only one with problems, concerns or issues.

Thank you for putting to words what I feel...but would not be able to write as eloquently as you!

allhorsestuff said...

Hello C-ing!
I really enjoyed meeting another part of You today here..thanks for risking, as some may see it. I say, thanks for being transparent to the point I found myself in your world.
I too have felt/feel mostly on the outside.
Now,Having to fit in with my horse in a stable..puts me right there as well..we don't fit the mould..writing about us and sharing... we seem to fit in and relate to others with Passsion and desire and love.

So, thanks for the reminder, to be, and ever desire in our lives-... "Whatever things are true,whatever things are noble,just,pure,lovely,of good report,if there is any virtue or anything praiseworthy, meditate on these things."
Peace be with you, my dear!!
Kacy w/ Wa mare

allhorsestuff said...

Philippians 4:8-9 !

Melanie said...

What a great post, and I always get calenders that are composed of pictures from the artist that you are featuring today.

You know...sometimes I debate about quitting blogging, because it is just another thing that I have to do, and then I realize that I have met some really cool people, and that I would never be able to just disappear from the blogging scene.

I think what I have a hard time with, is that a lot of my family, and my husband's family, come to my blog, so I feel like I cannot write about alot of the things that are really bothering me.

I started my blog as a "family" blog, so I guess that I cannot complain, but sometimes I just want to write down what is really on my mind, and I can' least not without hurting people's feelings.

Maybe I should start another blog called "Memoirs of a Dysfunctional Family," and make it open to invited readers only? Now there is an idea!!!

Katie said...

hey Lorie, I really enjoy reading your blog.

C-ingspots said...

Thanks Kacy for the bible reference - I couldn't remember the exact verse or where it was - I love that one!!
And Melanie, I sure hope you don't ever quit. I'd miss you my little blogger buddy. But, I understand about the family thing - maybe another private one wouldn't be a bad idea - venting is very good!

Welcome Katie!! And thanks.

Laughing Orca Ranch said...

Thank for opening up like that. I fell very similar as you do.
I've been blogging for 3 years and just yesterday realized that my first blog (the family blog, not the ranch blog), I had posted 1,000entries!!!
And on the ranch blog I had posted over 400 blog entries!
I had no idea I had typed that much nor posted that many photos.

It's been good for me, though I sometimes feel like I spend too much time reading all of my favorite blogs. I feel like I've made a few friends along the way as well.
Wish they weren't so far away, though :)

Anyway, I'm glad you jumped into the blogging world. I enjoy seeing your comments to me when you visit my blog :)