It feels like an eternity since I last posted here on my blog. In reality, it's only been since November 20th...however, some things affect us deeply enough that they seem to transcend time itself.
When I first started writing here on my blog, my only objective was to write down my thoughts, my feelings and to keep a journal of my life; and to help me remember the day-to-day ups and downs that can so easily get lost. I wanted to remember with clarity how I felt, what my emotions were about any given situation or time in our lives. And, I always feel better when I get all the "stuff" in my head, out. Writing is therapeutic for me, not as therapeutic as my barn time, but still...it's important.
|My great niece Jessica, her boyfriend Ryan and their son Hudson|
|Shelley and me|
|Shelley, her son Cody and granddaughter, Lilly|
|My nephew David, his wife Tammy and their kids, Ashley & Nathan, Ashley's son Micah|
|My sister Lilly and hubby Charlie|
|My niece Shannon and my great-great niece, Lilly|
|Full and sleepy|
We went to the cinema and watched "Interstellar" with Matthew McCaunaghay (sure I misspelled that), and it was surprisingly, very good. How could any movie with that beautiful man be bad, right? :) How I love long weekends spent relaxing and doing...well, whatever else we did. :)
Last week I noticed a rather large lump on Annie's neck, sort of between her neck and shoulder. It was roughly the size of an apple. A couple of radiographs, a couple of ultrasound pictures, and a fine needle aspirate later, the diagnosis is carcinoma. How I hate that word. My dear, sweet Annie has cancer. We had an appointment with our dog vet. LeAnne is realistic, practical and very experienced. The news isn't what I'd hoped for, but is what my gut was telling me. The tumor is inoperable because it's gone into the bone of her right front leg. From what we saw, the tumor has probably been there longer than I realized, and only recently got big enough for us to see on the outside. The degeneration of her bone is extensive, and our best option is to leave everything alone and manage her pain. I've been giving her NSAIDS for about a week now. LeAnne added Tramadol, and in a couple of weeks if we think it's needed, we'll add Gabipentin. We manage her pain, make her as comfortable as we possibly can and take it one day at a time. I made Annie a promise. She will not suffer. She will not live in pain. I will love her and be with her until the very end, whenever that may be. She has always been, and will continue to live the life of a dignified lady. That's what she is. My heart is just breaking at the thought of not having her in my life, but she will not suffer! God has blessed me with this dog in my life and I will not fail her in her time of greatest need. Until her time, we will live! And Annie will pretty much get anything and everything she wants. She's my girl, always has been...
|Just this past Monday - walk in the park|
|my lame attempt at a selfie...|
I had lunch with another dear friend yesterday. She's a gal I met through working at the clinic, and she's also a client. From the very beginning, I felt so comfortable with her, and felt like I'd known her for years. Of course, she's an animal lover. She has horses and dogs and cats, and lives in the country. No wonder we get along! Isn't it great how that happens sometimes? I just love how God moves different people in and out of our lives; just when we need them the most. I'm so thankful.
Well, that's about it since Thanksgiving. Our plans are to spend time with friends and family this season of Christmas, and to keep things relaxed, simplified and quiet - all the while remembering the "reason for the season".
May you all be blessed with good health, peace and prosperity...that goes for your critters too!!
Lorie @ Cingspots