Wednesday, February 11, 2009

It's not Wednesday, it's Humpday

Frost art

Humpday -
That's what my sweet dad used to call Wednesday and because he did it, I do it. I sure do miss that guy. If he were here, I'd ask him to wrap his arms around me and make everything all better again. He just had a way of putting everything into perspective for me and making me feel so much better. I consider myself blessed to have had a dad like I did, one who loved me unconditionally and without question and I admired and respected him always.

I'm having another one of "those" days again. You know, the kind of a day where staying in bed and not having to face the world sounds so very, very good? But, I'm here and doing my best to carry on in spite of inwardly feeling profound sadness and questioning some very foundational things in my life. Sounds oh so dramatic doesn't it? I don't mean it to be, I just don't exactly know what to say or how to feel and I'm so very tired of feeling out of control. Remember that spinning wheels scenario, like I'm reliving the same thing over and over and over again and nothing ever changes. It doesn't get better and it doesn't get just keeps going. Kind of like the Eveready bunny, just not in any way cute, or amusing. Oh well, life is what it is. I'm going to pick my butt up off the floor and carry on and be happy about it. Because I do have some very wonderful blessings in my life even though life isn't even close to being perfect or even resembling paradise. Hee hee, paradise is what we make it isn't it? Check mate Charlie.

It snowed again yesterday morning. Just an inch or so, just enough to make everything look pretty and the roads very, very treacherous. I saw two more accidents on my way to work again. One involved a car and a pickup and a snapped in two telephone pole. On a flat road and on the straightaway. Hmmm, you think they might have been travelling a wee bit too fast? So, we sat and waited while they got the road cleared away and then onward to work I went. Old man thinks the thrill is gone. Go away! And Monday night we had another full moon. It was eerily pretty with the passing clouds and the leafless branches of our big old black walnut tree. I took a few shots and will post one today. According to the calendar, we are less than 4 weeks away from daylight savings time. That's always welcome in my book. And then spring is less than 2 weeks after that. Can't come soon enough to suit me. I am ready for longer daylight hours and warmer temperatures and blooming flowers and more time spent outside. Yep, just what the doctor ordered!

I think today might be a triple shot latte day. Hmmm, sounds good to me.
Blessings everyone,


Gail said...

Beautiful moon! I haven't decided what I am going to be when I grow up. One thing all the power outages have done is make people realize the whos are what is important not the whats or whys.
Spring is not far away. You will make it!

fernvalley01 said...

Beautiful photos.
Sorry you are still felling blue. holding out my hand for you any time you need it.
Hug Ladde and Harley the might be a help

allhorsestuff said...

Hay Lorie darlin!
I loved hearing of your dad and your special relationship.

I am still with you on the down department...mostly my sleep deprivation kickin in on me..makes me unable to cope with anything adverse an sometimes just going to work is almost unbearable to face all those people. I am soo happy to know that I get back to real with a bit of sunshiine consistantly so.

I did have a tripple shot yesterday and it DID help me..YOU?
I so cracked up with your comment on former days!!! HA , isn't that watery picture of Wa, silly silly!
I couldn't help myself.
That is how I cope..I just make things light and funny for the truer feelings I have below the surface are too dark sometimes.I know I don't appear fully human to some...but I am too sensitive to share with most...I don't trust many with me.

I am so glad to have you to share this human experience with though !!
Tell me how you are today...K?!!

allhorsestuff said...

PS..I saw your moon and oooued! There is a "Sundays Stills" challenge every week over at "Oregon Sunshine" blog.
This week is the MOON. I am so snowed and was clouded over for two days during the fullest part, and I missed it all!
Yours is lovely!
I am putting one in from last summer's too hot camping trip.

See you soon!

C-ingspots said...

Sherry, thanks for the hand and the kind words. I did kiss those ponie's noses and it did feel good. :)
I gave Mr. Harles a kiss for you too.

Kacy, doing better today. Thanks. And, I skipped the latte and went straight for the chocolate! I'm bad!!
That moon shot is a trip huh? I shot that on the regular daytime setting and turned the flash off. Weird purple haze...

Laughing Orca Ranch said...

Your skies have been particularly gorgeous lately. I'm in awe of a beautiful sunset or sunrise.

Yes, you are very blessed to have a Dad that loved you unconditionally and that you respected and loved. Hold on to that, because some of us aren't that lucky.

Treasure your memories with him, because at least you have had that special time together.