|my dream view - courtesy of pinterest|
While driving to work this morning, I noticed this bank of clouds that ran a horizontal line across the entire eastern horizon. It was incredible! I think clouds are so amazingly beautiful, and so varied in their presentation. The sky was this soft, feathery blue and the edges of the white, puffy cloud bank was blurred like wispy cotton balls...so close I almost thought I could reach out and touch it. So pretty! The air was crisp and cool and the sunlight this time of year is so welcoming; not so harsh and bright like in summer. Well, technically it's still summer, but this morning felt just like a crisp Fall morning to me! Refreshing and clean.
I wore my boots! They're just ankle boots, but still. And a soft hoodie sweatshirt. I love it...and for the first time in a long time - my heated seat! Squeeeee! How comforting is a warm bum and a hot cup of coffee on a brisk morning? Delicious! :)
We're chopping our first firewood of the season this weekend. Our horseshoer Troy, is gifting us with some wood. We just need to make the big pieces into smaller ones to fit into our little wood stove and load it in our truck and haul it home. The weather is supposed to be much cooler and we're even expecting some showers, so what better time to work? We're so grateful to him because he's probably saving us a couple hundred dollars. Wood has gotten so very expensive and anytime we can save some money, I'm so happy about that. He says it's a healthy cord, possibly a little more. We are happy campers!
I haven't been able to ride Eagle since last weekend, even though the weather has been perfectly suited for it. Just not enough daylight after I get home from work and get dinner going and chores taken care of to ride. *sigh* Sure wish we had an indoor riding arena with nice footing at our disposal...but I do have one nearby that I can trailer to. Which is just what we'll be doing Tuesday evening. Maybe, if we're not too tired from woodcutting, we might be able to squeeze in a little trail ride sometime over the next couple of days. Hope so.
I've been thinking a lot about our little challenge we had last week while riding. For a lack of a better description, I'll call it "refusal". Really, I can't seem to describe it any more precise. However...I have this "friend", acquaintance really, that insists I'm missing something of great IMPORTANCE that my horse is trying to tell me. She wants to help me figure it out, find a better way to communicate, so my horse is understood, for my safety and his. That it only feels like defiance, resistance, refusal, whatever you choose to call it, and I'm completely wrong. Even though she hasn't witnessed it mind you. But she knows the situation quite well, even has a ready made term for it - tilt-ta-whirl...she won't even tell me what she thinks it might be. She wants me to come up so we can discuss it in person, over tea. She wants to schedule me in between clients and enlighten me. Oh my gosh, this gal really chaps my butt! I've known her for many years, and it's always the same with her. She knows the situation, horse, whatever better than anyone else, and wants only to help out. As my friend, as my horse's friend. Trouble is, she charges $40 an hour for her services and she's kind of like a chiropractor...they want you to keep coming back for more and more "treatments" or in Mary's case, "sessions". No thanks.
She sure knows how to get under my skin though...has me questioning my choices, my horsemanship, my assessment of the situation and insists that there's many people out there willing to help me "do more", instead of doing less - which of course, is the basis of my philosophy regarding
horsemanship in general. Always try to get with your horse, and use the situation, doing less so the horse can step up, have your idea become his idea and so forth. It's like planting a little seed of doubt, questioning if we did the wrong thing and was unfair and overly harsh with my horse. Why do I let her bother me? I only wish I knew. My hubby tells me, "come on, this is Mary, you know how she is". He's so right. But still, that nagging little question remains...was I? I guess the reason is simple enough. I don't ever want to be unfair. I want to always do right by my horse. Be fair. Reasonable and just.
There are more opinions out there about horsemanship than there are grains of sand on the seashore!
I do however believe that when we communicate and share our ideas, our experiences, we all learn. If any of you have any thoughts you'd be willing to share, I would appreciate them. Above all, I'm trying to keep an open mind and continue to grow.
In my gut I know we didn't treat Eagle unfairly. I wasn't asking him to do anything unreasonable. Just take a little ride...
I admit though. There have been numerous times since that ride that I have asked myself - "what would Ray have said to do?", "what would Joe say?". In my heart and soul, I actually do believe that there is a better response than how we reacted. A better way. A solution that wouldn't involve any force at all, a softer way to reach his mind. Reach his feet. I just don't know what it is. And I need to figure it out for myself. For us to move past this.
In my mind, when I'm riding Eags...we don't have any problems. We're a unified team, just riding along, in unison. Of one body and one spirit. :)
I guess nobody ever said it was supposed to be easy...
Oh, and another reason this is such a beautiful morning for me? My dad visited me in my dreams last night. I don't claim to understand dreams, and especially some of the dreams my mind comes up with, but oh, what a precious gift! It was nice waking up with a smile thinking of my dad, and just being with him, even if it was only a dream.
Blessings everyone! I hope you enjoy this turning of the seasons as much as I do and as always, find abundant reasons to be thankful and feel joy. Last weekend of summer - enjoy!!!