Thursday, April 1, 2010

Happy April Fool's Day!!

...or, as it's been more appropriately termed..."All Fool's Day". :) To me, this somehow includes all of humankind and is much more politically correct. Wouldn't you agree?

Shame on me...sorry, couldn't resist!

Anyway, thought I'd better drop in here and chat for a bit. My last posting has been a couple of weeks or so ago. I know...I'm not doing very well here lately. I do, however read my favorites a lot more often than I've been updating my own blog. I love reading about what all my wonderful blog buddies are doing.

Seems lately my life has been in a bit of a standstill for some reason. I get up each morning and greet the day, head off to the clinic and put in my time there, come home and along with my hubby, take care of the horses and the cats, then head inside for a quick dinner. "yawn" See what I mean? Boring, huh? Since the news about Harley, seems like my energy level has dipped to an alltime low. I know it's a bit of depression hitting me, and I will overcome, but it's there all the same. I've actually been feeling more tired than depressed. For a while there, I was walking several times a week, had started swimming with a friend, well I did once anyway... :) , with hopes of doing it at least twice weekly, and riding twice weekly. For the last month, I've hunkered down and done a bunch of nothing, or at least it feels that way.

The rain certainly doesn't help. It's been raining torrents lately...lake backyardy is looking like a great hangout for the local duck and goose's spring, or at least the calendar says so, however our weather since spring has sprung, is far worse than most of our winter was. Sound like I'm complaining? Uh-huh, I am. I am so sick of rain!!!!! And mud, and grey!!!! I want to go lay in the sun and feel the warmth deep inside my bones, and get a sunburn. Yeah, soak up a lot of sun and wear summer clothes and complain about how hot I am...and fan myself like a true Southern Belle. Not some wrinkly old prune drowning in all this dreary Oregon rain!!!!

Okay, that feels better! Just need to vent a little and get it all out. Like a big, loud belch! Admit it - it feels good sometimes.

Thanks for listening...

Blessings ya'll

Cingspots, over and out!

Oh, just thought of something. Quick update on my Harley horse. Last week, I took a day off work and took Harley to an ophthamologist for a thorough eye exam. Diagnosis is chronic uveitis (cause unknown), secondary cataracts in both eyes and mild to moderate glaucoma in both eyes. There is still some vision in both eyes, but not much in his left, more in his right. In human terms, he would be declared legally blind. He sees shapes, shadows and changes in light, but no distinction. This has probably been coming on for possibly several, if not many, least he's had time to adjust. For which, I am eternally thankful. Me, however...I'm still trying to get used to the idea. Blindness would suck. But Harley's so much more resilient than I will probably ever be. I am thankful that he trusts me so much. In fact, I feel honored that he trusts me. I love my wonderful, gorgeous Harley horse!! I just pray that I don't let him down. I hope to ride him again on Sunday, for the first time since finding out about his vision. I will be both our eyes, and we'll be fine.


Leah Fry said...

For the record, "tired" is a sign of depression. It's not all about feeling sad. Sounds like you need some quality pony time, especially with Harley, to get you in a proper frame of mind.

I know exactly what you mean, though. Some weeks just seem to run all together with no color to differentiate them.

I've been posting less myself. My impetus for action is that you have to DO things to make for interesting blogging. Helps me get off my duff.

Harley's going to be fine. I'm sure he's going to teach you many things.

Kate said...

We have a very old (30s) horse at our barn who has exactly the same thing going on - he's had chronic uveitis, has cataracts and all of a sudden is much less able to see than he has been - he's gotten very scary and hard to halter. We're using sound cues - crinkling peppermint wrappers and voice - to sooth him, and he's in a small, familiar paddock.

It's hard when these things happen - just feel what you're feeling right now and it will pass.

Grey Horse Matters said...

The rain takes the heart out of you but I'm sure the sun will come out soon. Harley and you will adjust to his eyes and you will both have wonderful times together.

Lea and her Mustangs said...

On this Good Friday afternoon, I am sitting here looking out the window and it is snowing, thought we were having a blizzard a while ago, then it pours buckets, then back to snow and the wind is whipping. I too am sick of rain and grey. and more rain and grey. Some days I don't want to get out of bed. Sound familiar. Yep me too. Have a great Easter.

fernvalley01 said...

Hugs , my sweet lady .I know you will get through this but a huge hug all the same. Sending you rainbows!

Dunappy said...

Sorry to hear about Harley. I've had a couple of partially blind horses. Two different mares with only one eye. My mare Big Mamma also has night blindness in her good eye. So she can't see at night but can see during the day from her one eye. I know what you are going through. As he's had time to adjust to his condition It's likely he won't totally freak out if he does go totally blind. If you want to talk more about working around a blind one let me know and we can chat about it.

Remember that Bright Zip (John Lyons favorite horse) was also blind and still being ridden and worked as normal. Blindness doesn't have to mean a total retirement .

greymare said...

Hey sounds like you've got a case of the blues alright. Not enough vitamin D in your life (sunshine). Try taking vit D supplements and get out on that boy Harley and get inspired. I find there is nothing better than quality time with my ponies to get me back on track. Seiously though, lack of sunshine has been known to cause many depressions and suicides. Go to a tanning salon even, get some vitamin D and you'll probably feel better. It works, I've been there.

LuLo Designs/Blue Eyed Tango said...

I can relate....we've had a lot of rain here too and it does mess with your mood. I've been riding anyway despite the way I feel and it has helped. My daughter is blind in one eye and losing her sight in her good eye because it's being overworked. I don't know what we'll do if she loses complete eyesight. I'm sure you and Harley will work out good communication skills, he depends on you.

Welcome To Wilmoth Farms said...

It is disheartening...I was the same way when I found out King was the same way in his one eye...he is now TOTALLY blind in that eye. The other I worry about..But like the encouraging comments you've gotten from others like myself with horses in this condition, you'll still ride, you've been riding and he has been this way all along! There is no difference now...the thing your not giving you or him credit for is the amount of trust you two have, the bond....girl give your self a pat on the back and realize how SPECIAL that is!!!!!! You have something that A LOT of horse-human partnerships DONT have between each other!!!!!!! The two of you have already transcended into such a beautiful thing that words cannot explain! When i realized what I had with my boy I felt such a rise of joy and love in my heart I just cried with happiness to know how much he trusted me!!!!! It is so special, and now that he has gone down on me and I'm loosing my best friend and we are living on borrowed time (you can read about whats happened on my blog) its made the time even more special and those memories even more cherished. Now he trusts me to take care of him when he is needing me the MOST....It will be'll learn to work with him and through on communication verbally and through your body even more in the round pen as often as you can until he gets it down pat...consistency....he'll learn it so fast you'll be amazed, if he hasnt already, I bet he does cause he has already been relying on you and I bet you didnt know it! Oh my best wishes for you and so many prayers for you both! My heart aches for you but I also know just how special this relationship can be!!!!!! BIG BIG hugs! GET OUT when that sun is...GET OUT when the suns not every moment you can and be with him and work with him, you NEED it! Besides he is wondering where the heck you are when your not!

prashant said...

The rain takes the heart out of you but I'm sure the sun will come out soon
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